What Does a Killer’s House Look Like?

Written by RitaC on February 4th, 2017

I went in search of a killer’s house today.  I knew the name of the street from a newspaper article.

I drove and scanned the two-block long neighborhood, looking at cozy homes with white siding, gray siding, yellow siding. Almost all remained original with three bedrooms, one bath, living room, and kitchen.

Was it the yellow house with a string of electric candy canes stringing the driveway?

My icicle lights still drape my deck railing.

Was it the gray home, a section of lattice leaning against against a faded front door?

Under our deck a piece of lattice is down: our old hound used to crawl beneath and sleep in its coolness in the summer. The previous front door of our farmhouse leaked air so badly in its last years, we covered it with plastic and a blanket in the winter.

Does a killer who fires multiple shots in one victim and a neat shot through the forehead of another have any identifying characteristics outside his house?

Maybe the home isn’t his. Perhaps, he rents it, shares it with a mom or a dad or both; a grandmother, a girlfriend or friends or friends’ family. Maybe he lived alone. Does he have family to share his life?

Our house is home to my husband and one cat. Numerous friends and extended family have slept on couches and floors.  My daughter lived here into her 20s and came back, briefly, in her 30’s with her young family to look for a house to buy.  Now two grandchildren come for overnights.

What does a killer’s home look like?

Probably like mine or yours with four walls, windows, doors, a roof.

Most killers’ homes may have no extraordinary outward appearance that would separate it from another house in the neighborhood.

But sometime during that person’s life, something went terribly wrong. Whatever the wounds, the pain, the desperation that lay behind invisible walls that allowed him to survive as long as he did, were just that–invisible.  Either no one noticed or no one cared.

I don’t think I’ll ever know what a killer’s house looks like.

All I can do is be vigilant with my own inner home and look beyond outer appearances.

 

 

Women’s March on Washington 2017

Written by RitaC on January 25th, 2017

Women’s March on Washington 2017. The Museum of Natural History

I may have missed Woodstock in 1969, but I showed up for the Women’s March on Washington in 2017.

On Friday, January 20th, my daughter, her friend, and I drove the 8 hours from southwest Ohio to DC, meeting sister marchers along the way at gas stations and rest stops.  Easily recognizable to each other with no outward symbols, we all had a look of expectancy, determination, and zeal.

Near a Frederick, Maryland gas stop,we marveled at a Trump supporter: blonde, middle-aged, she wore a red and blue, sequined Trump-Pence jacket and sported Trump leggings of our new POTUS’ face from her waist to ankles. That led to conversation with pink-hatted women parked next to us. Two adults and two teens, they gifted us with three pink pussycat hats they had made. We posed for pictures and parted with: “See you in Washington!”

On Saturday, January 21st, we grabbed a quick breakfast at the hotel and piled into the shuttle bus, squeezing in 2 more women than there were seats. We were absorbed into slow-moving lines at the Franconia-Springfield station and met several hundred like-minded people. The sign, “A woman’s place is in the revolution,” sanctioned by Princess Leia, rocked us with laughter. Another,”Retired Marine–I’m with her and her and her,” blanketed us with gratitude.

By the time we packed the train and began moving, we had met hundreds of  jovial traveling companions. They had flown from as far away as California and driven from as nearby as Springfield, Virginia. After much bumping and jostling, we emerged at the L’Enfant stop and joined the crowd. We baby-stepped, stopped, shuffled, paused. We gulped fresh air at the top of the escalators. We emerged into a gathering of 500,000 of the friendliest people I’d ever met.

We walked north on 7th to Independence, the gateway to the stage near the Capitol. We tried going east on Jefferson, to no avail, to Madison, likewise. We skipped the jumbotrons in favor of moving toward the speakers.

We never made it to the stage. We passed the Smithsonian buildings twice, joined chants like, “This is what democracy looks like,” laughed at signs like ,”Get back in the DeLorean!!! We obviously turned the dial in the wrong direction!”

The platform speakers were still talking at 2:45.  We could hear roars of affirmation moving through the crowd like waves. The march, to begin at 1:15, was rerouted and marchers streamed on Jefferson and Madison and streets we couldn’t see.

We stepped over the draped chain fence at the Washington Monument and saw into the slight dip ahead of us, a gargantuan crowd that was merely a small part of the overall mass. We tramped toward the White House, the Lincoln Memorial, The Vietnam and World War II Memorials. We crossed the Arlington Memorial Bridge toward the Metro station and on to our hotel.

On Sunday, January 22nd, while checking out of the hotel, a sister marcher asked me why I was part of the march.

“Women’s right, human rights, reproductive rights.”

That was my initial reaction. Add: climate change, freedom for all ethnicities, religions, sexual orientations, the right to health care.

 

My awareness of the feminist movement began in the 70s, during the second wave of feminism. My passion for it has never faded. In the last 50 years, the feminist movement has grown from bra-burning and a beauty pageant protest, to the inclusion of all peoples and the struggle for human rights

My daughter, born in the 70s, drove her friend and me, to Washington, D.C. and back to Ohio. In doing so, she linked my past and present, with our future, as women who will continue to speak out, to show up, and to support humane beliefs.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Draft to Craft Poetry Workshop – Reading

Written by RitaC on October 28th, 2014

What happens when a group of talented regional poets come together weekly to inspire and encourage each other in their craft? Come hear for yourself on Wednesday, November 5, 7 pm, at Joseph-Beth Booksellers/Crestview Hills (about 3 miles south of Cincinnati) as poets from Thomas More College’s From Draft to Craft Poetry Workshop, led by Writer in Residence Pauletta Hansel, read from their work and talk about their craft. I’ll be reading, along with Kate Fadick, author of Slipstream (Finishing Line Press), Pauletta Hansel, author of What I Did There (Dos Madres Press) and The Lives We Live in Houses (Wind Publications), Jerry Judge, author of Luna Moth (Finishing Line Press), John Cruze, Kris Gillis, Annie Hinkle, Gary McCormick, Tony Otten, Nicole Rahe, Susan Scardina, Claudia Skutar, Chuck Stringer, Kelly Thomas, and Scott Whitehurst. A book signing follows.

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TMC’s Creative Writing Vision Program is supported in part by grants from the John A. Schroth Family Charitable Trust, PNC Bank, Trustee, and Scripps Howard Foundation. For more information about Thomas More College’s Creative Writing Vision Program, visit www.thomasmore.edu.

 

Seasons 2015 Calendar

Written by RitaC on September 25th, 2014

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The new SEASONS 2015 calendar portrays a year in the Midwest, including the stunning, surreal picture of “Icy Sunrise,” the fun “Bathing Beauties” and the glow of “Autumn Sunshine.”

The calendar may be ordered through www.lulu.com for 14.99 plus shipping.

Update: The calendar is also now available through Griffin and Co., located in Town and Country Shopping Center, Kettering, OH.

 

Written by RitaC on July 29th, 2014

In Praise of Children Who Don’t Listen

When asked why, they say Sometimes I don’t want to listen.
Fair enough you think.
You remember what it’s like
Filling every waffle hole with syrup
Pondering the swirling bath tub drain
Feathertouching a cicada shell, brown, brittle, and cramped
Gazing out of focus, losing what self you have in dreaminess
While people taller and older interrupt your world.

But you say I need you to listen
Because saying it twice or even three times demands
more words for your tired mouth
That squirrel will bite you
No jumping off the couch
We’re not buying anything today
Over and over day after day, alert, you repeat
Because your job is keep little bodies safe.

Yet you long to uphold the right to not listen,
To silence those damnable interruptions for
A glint off a copper dome
A mockingbird’s tumblesong
A green bite of parsley from the earth
Sensations, colors, shapes, sizes, gaining admittance or not.
Now that you’re older you can. But do you?
Or do the conspirators have all your attention?

 

Ending, Beginning

Written by RitaC on May 30th, 2014

When the ash wing dove

dips my way

on the day

that is my last

I will float

onto its feathered back

lean low

steady, ready

to soar into

the near unseen

a teardrop

in someone’s eye

a sigh

in someone’s breath

an ache

in someone’s chest.

 

The ash wing dove

flies closer

to the sweet place

landing from memory,

standing on

the unmarked target,

ascending

to the far world again as

my voice drops away

my eyes settle deep

inside me and

my body is a flash of gold.

 

Dedicated to my mother Suzie O’Neil and my ex-husband, Bob Speer.

 

 

Alternate Reality

Written by RitaC on March 15th, 2014

 

If Narcissus the god had gazed at the narcissus flower

Blooming somewhere in the folds of the earth

If he had become enchanted by the warm yellow center

Enticed by slender, waving, come-hither lovelies

Entered the tubal opening, finding mirrored passion,

He would have beheld beauty staring back at him

Rather than the shallow reflection of his face in a pond,

A reflection, that when the wind arose, blurred, then erased it.

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My Mother, The Atom Bomb Maker

Written by RitaC on February 25th, 2014

My Mother, The Atom Bomb Maker

 

Fresh off the farm, a Mrs., a mother,

twenty-one years of living,

you came to work in the town

that didn’t exist on any map.

 

Tennessee, 65 cents an hour,

far more than birthing calves,

hoeing beans, baking cornbread,

tending to your baby, helping your mama.

 

Just up the road 40 miles, brand-new

buildings, a field of red mud so thick

you carried store-bought saddle oxfords

high above your hair, feet squishing in the muck.

 

In your building, a vague smell of metal,

gauges, chemical tanks you scrubbed while

flyboys bombed Europe, sailors scoured

the Pacific, one of them your Mr.

 

How were you to know,

how was anyone to know, that

uranium split into the power

of small sun would write history?

 

The secrecy endowed mystery

to your life, why nothing was ever

produced that you could see,

that anyone could see.

 

You blossomed into a beauty,

a flower behind your ear in one picture,

in another, the tallest in a crisp white uniform,

farm-tough, the leader of your group.

 

In your dorm, you learned nail polish–red–

lipstick–red–and face powder not meant for

the farm but a perfect blush for days and nights,

a small beacon, like so many in the shadow of the mountains.

 

When a second sunrise in as many days

lit up a land half-way around the world,

your voice called for answers:

How safe was this work?

 

Is it any wonder, the bossman in his suit

whispered “undesirable” creating a chain-reaction

leading to your “termination” (they called it),

releasing you into the freedom you helped win.

 

After the rent in the earth, your heart began

Mending from its own attack and you began

Living the peace that had come,

Living the peace that had cost.

 

Exquisite Flowers 2014 Calendar and Seasonal Notecards

Written by RitaC on December 4th, 2013

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EXQUISITE FLOWERS 2014  features twelve months of stunning flowers ranging from close-ups to mountain vistas.

The calendar may be ordered through this website  for $14.50 plus shipping or through www.lulu.com for 14.99 plus shipping.

A perfect gift for gardeners or anyone who loves beautiful blossoms.

 

SEASONAL NOTE CARDS

Note cards are perfect for that personalized  message or as a gift for the special someones in your life. Beyond the unique photo cover, the inside of each card is blank, awaiting a personal note.The cards are available: four for $10.00; or, individually, for $3.00.

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Winter Elegance

 

Winter Vignette

Winter Vignette

Winter Jewel

Winter Jewel

Giving You the Eye

Giving You the Eye

Hanging Loose

Hanging Loose

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Sunburst

Summer Flowers, Biltmore Estate, Asheville, NC

Summer Flowers, Biltmore Estate, Asheville, NC

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Rooster and Hen

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Summer Sky Art

 

 

My Mother Suzie, Honorable Mention in Greater Cincinnati Writers League 2014 Annual Poetry Contest

Written by RitaC on November 20th, 2013

My Mother Suzie

Now I understand why my mother was like she was,

Why our house was laundry piles in the kitchen,

Dirty ashtrays and coffee cups lipsticked on the rims.

 

My mother ate life.

No knife and fork poised over an entree.

She gulped, ran a paper napkin over her mouth.

 

And talked! How she could go, a rhythm known only to her

And her girlfriends: her sister Mary, Ruby from Georgia,

And the Suzie wanna-be’s she moved into our house.

 

She was too busy to read and mangled words

Like some mothers sewed.

Chrystianthums. Polyurtheline. Lopers. (to trim branches)

 

My mother was loud. She was embarrassing–

Discussing my first bra on the streets of downtown Dayton

Where strangers were privy to the development of my breasts.

 

Yet when anyone needed a defender, she stepped forth

In her bold-tongued way, wearing costume jewelry that clinked

As she gestured with hands that dipped and arced like finches.

 

My mother ate life, spicy and grilled,

Laughing to doubled-over,

That sideways look in her eyes.